Dork is My Middle Name

I told myself;

2012-01-25T20:32:00.002+08:00

It's okay not to feel okay every once in a while.

2011-12-22T02:24:00.003+08:00

What I think.

2011-12-11T05:43:00.001+08:00

You know when something feels right, everything will be just fine. You don't have to try hard to make things happen, cause it will happen according to your will naturally. When the burden you feel on your shoulder slowly gone.. Everyday is a brand new day, everything is getting deeper. The feeling mostly.. Deeper and deeper. When you wake up in the morning, she's the first thought that make you smile. That makes you say thank you God for another day cause you know your day will be awesome with her around.. No kid.

When she's trying as much as you do to complete one another. When she prioritizes you more than anyone else, and feel the pain that you used to feel before. When she never fails to cry after hearing your sad past and she calms you down by saying "I'd give everything I have to fill your mind with new memories"

This is all good. I'm completely back on track. I have found someone that really cares about me. I mean really. No doubt she really does. And no doubt I really love her so much. I've learned to love her so much since 6 months ago and I really do now.. Imagine living my life without her.. I can't.

I love you.

The truth hurts.

2011-11-27T05:04:00.000+08:00

A few days ago my ex texted me to ask me about something which blew my mind. And the question were "If I didn't know the whole story, would you tell me the truth or just keep it to yourself? Would you make it all better again?"

Gulp.

You wanna know what my reaction is? I mean my answer for those questions..

Here goes,

"First of all, you can't handle the truth. No matter how much you convince yourself you can but still, no. You can't. I'm trying to be real here. Some things are better left unsaid. If I want to fix things up, and be with you again, all I need to do is to shut up. I know you might say you deserve to know the truth, but as what I told you, you can't handle it. So it's better to leave it there, and we build a new chapter. Even if it might sound not fair to you, but I don't think you would be okay, I don't think you would eternally forget everything after you knew what I did behind your back right? So when I decided to not telling you the truth, it's not because I'm scared you would find out and leave me. I'm scared you would get hurt, and the wound won't heal."

Knowing Nothing Is Better Than Knowing It All. Hear what The Used said..

Confidence is sexy.

2011-11-25T03:14:00.000+08:00

I don't talk much. I observe. I see loads of girls with low confidence, or even worst; no confidence at all. I see some of girls who praise certain girls that they label as "beautiful" too much.

"God, you're so pretty. Your life is perfect. You got a perfect life, perfect boyfriend, perfect teeth (?), ..."

Girls, you sure they're perfect? When you only judge their appearance, and what they allowed you to see? Do you really know those girls? I mean their real lives? You can't make a conclusion based on what you stalk on the internet. You do believe everything you read/saw on the internet? Okay, then you're stupid. Sorry to say, but you are.

Confidence is sexy. That is the key. Confidence. But don't overdo it. Cause you would blow it.

Ego ruins.

2011-11-24T04:50:00.000+08:00

You should be able to control your sadness. You should be able to feel happy. You should be able to look at yourself in front of the mirror and smile widely. I have this urge to blog again since I feel like everybody is taking my Twitter seriously. I hate that feeling. That feeling when you can no longer express your thoughts freely.

Hi, hello.

2011-11-24T04:41:00.002+08:00

Can somebody tell me why did I abandon my blog for so long? Anyone?

The unforgettable 8 months period.

2011-08-23T04:57:00.001+08:00

I personally think I have this thing in me, I mean by expressing my thoughts into writing. Writing is a part of me and will always be. My mission to stop writing failed. Not just once, nor twice.. I don't know how many times already I made it clear that I want to abandone my Blogspot but I just couldn't do that, really. You know the phase? Yeah the tough phase I went through for 8 months? I can proudly say it has ended! All Hail King of Dork! Of course with the help of my loving and awesome friends. Those miserable months I could not bare to tell but for the sake of future reference. As I know the future Aimi will like to read it someday, lets just give the future Aimi some reminder yeah if ever this shit happens again?

I went mental. Like totally lost. I'm not ashamed when I tell you this, yes I cried every night. Thinking where did I go wrong. Situations went tougher when I had to go to my On Job Training every day. Thank God for my friends. Yeah. Them. Who helped a lot. How can I forget those sweet advices from my bros; Bert, Has, and mostly Geceng. I told Geceng everything and he told me to be patient. I killed time by spending most of my time with them. We skipped work, we loitered around shopping malls, watched movies at cinema. Yeah. Them. Thanks a lot buddies. Thanks for being there when I needed you guys the most. Geceng was like my shoulder to cry on. And my two loving friends from Up North aka my awesome hometown; Nad and Nab. What would I be without them. They helped me ease the pain a bit by bit. They were there for me. They listened to my pathetic stories without hesitation. When I sobbed and when I couldn't stay even a day at my own house back in Subang. How could I stay there when all I thought about was my ex at that moment. You know I had this bad post break up syndrome where I could not even stay at my own house. It reminded me of her. I couldn't stay alone I guess. By being with friends made me forget her. I still remember I called my other ex and told her about this. She only told me this 'you once did it to me, and now be ready to pay the price.' Yeah great. She was right. I did something bad to her and at that time karma is chasing me back.

Maybe some of you will say 8 months weren't that long. Well my friends, they were for me. I've never been single for that long in my entire life. I've always had someone there besides me. Always. This is the first time ever in my entire life. You know how hard it was? To stand at your own feet? When all these while you always had someone around? I lost my way. Really. I didn't know what I had become into. Til now. Maybe now I'm way better. Yeah of course. Now it's a different story. I don't want to talk about now. I still want to tell you guys about my 8 months torturing journey. So back to my story, since I can't recall much about what had happened, let me just conclude that if ya'll happen to be at my place, just go on. Keep on walking to the endless road. Like I did. I kept on walking til I finally found my way. Before, not knowing where the road might lead me to, I silently put my faith in God for whatever outcomes I shall face later. And believe me, that outcomes that I'm getting now are indeed beautiful. And it all worth it. It all worth it you know. I'm not lying.

I finally found my way back after my long journey. I persuaded my own heart, I said this to myself, 'it's okay Aimi, you'll find your way someday. Learn to let go little by little. Little will be something bigger when you do it every day. ' Yeah I did it every day. I left behind the sad memories. I never intend to take them back. I'm pretty much paranoid the same thing will happen again if I take them back. Leaving those memories behind are the best decision I've ever made so far. I slowly learn to appreciate my life even more. And people surrounding me. I notice even the simplest thing that makes a person beautiful. And that when I came across this one person.

A person who is beautiful inside out. Indeed you are. Thanks for coming my way. You have made me want to be better. You have shown me honesty and sincerity still live in this world. Yeah guys, there's still hope lives in this world ey? :) The road is still long. This is just the beginning. I learnt my lesson. I grew stronger than before. Completely a different person now. Yeah. So if you have been knocked down pretty hard, just get up and fuck everything else that is stopping you to get up. And the important thing is to try hard to stand at your own feet.

MY AWESOME BUDDIES, thanks for helping me out! Kae, Anim, Kak Alia, Nawar, Wan, Najwa, Chaen, Thira, Nadia, Aesya, and those names I mentioned above. Yeah guys, they were there for me through my downs. I don't forget, and will never be. I shall repay ya'll someday, God willing.

Laters.

Beautifully written piece.

2011-08-22T04:36:00.000+08:00

I might have missed you too much tonight. You are forbidden to leave me alone even just for a night, you copy? :(

I don't fucking care even if I sound super corny here. I miss you.

My Sweet Little Thing,

2011-08-20T03:26:00.001+08:00

Dear my little smiley finger,
You came out of nowhere into my life,
Everything turned out to be awesome again after that,
You filled this wounded heart with happiness again.

My dear little smiley finger,
Please stay a lil bit longer than you should,
Cause I love it here, with you around.
You made me feel whole again,
You. No one else but you.

:)

Guess who's back?

2011-08-03T03:44:00.001+08:00

So yeah we meet again, Blogspot. I thought I could abandoned my blog, but I feel the need to write again. I'm like the brand new Aimi. Yeap peeps. I'm all fine now. I'm back. I left everything behind and now back on track again. Thank God. I survived, finally ! :)

It's true when they said Time Heals. It surely did. I took sometime to analyze everything that happened. I took my steps slowly. I had a very tough phase I must say, and to be able to survive, well I'm blessed. Thank God.

And thanks to you, you came out of nowhere, and what has gotten into us now? :)
I'm blessed again. God has his own ways aite? :)

Laters.

Hello Mello :)

2011-06-04T04:20:00.000+08:00

I don't feel like writing on Blogspot anymore. I'm busyyyyyyyyyyyyy and I'm more to Tumblr as I get to update it using my Blackberry. Booooo Blogspot for not having an apps for BB users like me. Haih. What the hell. I shall leave my Blogspot unwritten after this. So long and goodbye, Blogspot. Thanks for being at my service for almost 4 years. :)

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Laters ! :)

Langkasuka Negeriku.

2011-05-05T06:18:00.003+08:00

Hikayat Merong Mahawangsa. I ordered the movie at Astro First. Ermmmm. What can I say about this movie ? Well the graphic was pretty good, even the fact that I laughed at certain scene in it. Other than that, err. The movie was kinda suck. The story line was DOPE. C'mon who the fuck wrote the script? For at least please have a thorough research if you want to make a history-related movie. When I saw the trailer I was mesmerized, but when I watch the movie, I WAS LAUGHING ALL THE WAY. HA HA HA. This is the best you can do? Kahkahkah. Okay. I'm being pretty pessimistic aite? Well, Critiques are needed if you want to improve. If you can't accept criticism then just don't do anything. Whatever it is, HIDUP LANGKASUKA (old named for Kedah; my beloved state :p) !

Ape dow?

2011-05-04T01:41:00.000+08:00

Cuba menganjing. Bront Paralae, please don't sue us ! This is just for fun. =_=

First love?

2011-04-25T01:04:00.000+08:00

I had my first love when I was fourteen. There were so many things I wish I could do at that time, but it turned out I had no chance because I was too stupid. First love is never meant to work out, I guess. First love is like a trial for you to be matured, to identify what to do and what not to do. To repair, to improve. I improved. Seriously. From egoistic to this. Because I learned, you don't know what you got til it's gone. I failed. I failed to show my warmness just because of my ego. Moving on to my second love. This was quite true. For 5 years it stayed. But then again, I'm just a human with loads of errors. Communication. The second one was lack of it. We didn't talk that much. No, not that.. We didn't communicate to find mutual understandings. That was the problem. And then I failed for the second one. And the third one, which I find the most true of all the love, but we were facing with loads of hardships.. :') You know there is no perfect love, but loving you makes me feel complete. Even when we're no longer together, for I am still loving you deeply. No one has ever made me feel this way. No one. I believe there's no other love after you. And I'm not gonna dance again, the way I danced with you. Never will..

The key is,

2011-04-21T03:59:00.000+08:00

..to not care. At all. Show me how.

One thing that I'm sure of,

2011-04-21T03:57:00.000+08:00

It's gonna take forever.

Make me able to sleep peacefully again.

I'm exhausted.

When you tried your best but it goes to waste.

2011-04-16T02:28:00.000+08:00

I figured out I will lose my cool if I don't write in here, in my blog. Or in my Twitter.
I lost my cool and attacked the one I love the most. It's not cool, Aimi.
It shouldn't be like that. What have gotten you? All these while you were so patient,
I'd like to keep picturing yourself that way, Aimi.
Bear that in mind,
Do not do the same thing.
Geez, man. You suck. You suck for doing that to the person you proclaimed you love most.
How could you do that?
I guess you're a human too huh, Aimi?
No one can hold on to craps forever, babe. No one.. I'm included. :(
I'm sorry.

Say hello to,

2011-04-04T03:38:00.000+08:00

My 12th nephew; Ariq Lutfan. This is my current possession . I am sorry if my blog afterwards will be filled by his photos! :) Welcome to Abdullah's & Faziah's family.

This phase too shall pass.

2011-04-02T01:23:00.001+08:00

Hello and good evening.
It's been awhile since I last updated my blog. I used to update it everyday aye? Lame me.
I abandoned this blog fer awhile cause I've figured it's really no use to write when my thoughts are not being heard.. Pathetic me. Whatever. This phase is pretty tough I must say. But you know, everyone knows, this phase shall pass, eventually. No matter how hard the condition is, it shall pass, gracefully. God knows.
In God, I have faith. I've been knocked hard, I fell to the ground, I'm broken to pieces, and there's a tiny voice within my heart telling me that this is it. Yes. This is it. No, my white flag is may be UP, but it's only for the best.
For the best, and for the best it shall be. Yes it is. There's no point in trying anymore. I have pledged not to look back. To not go through to whatever thing that is related to you. I shall forbid myself to see whatever thing that will lead me to you. I am strong enough to do that nowadays. Believe me this feels close like killing my own self, but it is for the best, aye? :)

When you gave the best, and you got shits in return, ..
No worries,
This phase shall pass.

Mayday Parade - Miserable At Best.

2011-03-24T18:15:00.002+08:00

"I can live without you, but I'll be miserable at best.."

#prayforjapan

2011-03-13T19:37:00.001+08:00

Do you think this is funny? Do you really think this picture is funny? How could someone made fun of something like this?

And ada pulak manusia-manusia kat Twitter cakap "alah kecoh la lu butthurt tak tentu pasal"

WE BODO NAK MELAWAK AMENDA PASAL NATURAL DISASTER SIAL. Lu orang gertak sikit, tweet sikit pasal lu dalam Twitter, lu goyang nak mampos. Kecoh kot lepastu pasal benda ni lu cakap apahal nak butthurt benda2 camni? Bodo la makan pelempang lagi bagus.

There are certain things in life we can make fun of, but certainly not this one. #prayforjapan

One is not better than two.

2011-03-13T19:07:00.000+08:00

Lovely. One day I'll learn how to play piano. When I get the chance to. You know sometimes, when you already tried your best, and you failed, then you tried hard summore, and you failed again miserably, then you might re-think that it's just better that way. Better that way, maybe it's meant to be like that, stop trying too hard, no rush, if it's meant to be, it is meant to be.

Note #3

2011-03-13T16:49:00.001+08:00

"That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you.."

- Simple Plan, Save You.

The first time.

2011-03-10T18:18:00.003+08:00

The first time, to sit awkwardly infront of you, to finally see you face to face, to finally talk to you live. I acted funny. I was shy. My first time, your first time, our first time.

Note to self #2.

2011-03-09T13:21:00.000+08:00

To go far,
To leave everything here,
To build new memories,
To be able to look at new things and smile,

The time will come.

In Kenny We Trust.

2011-03-06T23:45:00.000+08:00

We may lost to West Ham last week,

but, but, but, but,

WE MANAGED TO BRING DOWN THE FUCKING BASTARD ARROGANT MANYOO!!

You'll Neva Wolk Alone!

p/s : Someday I'm gonna watch Liverpool's game live at Anfield. I fucking will.

2011-03-06T06:12:00.000+08:00

It's either you :) or :( , it doesn't matter. No one will care.

There are two tragedies in life.

2011-03-06T05:42:00.000+08:00

Moving on is hard, but you make it sounds so easy,

Not getting what I want, that's my tragedy. Yours, always getting what you want.

Life.

2011-03-06T04:51:00.000+08:00

Life is better when I close my eyes. Life starts to treat me like shit when I have to see what my eyes can't even stand to see. It gets worsen than I thought it would. It feels like you're better off dead. Rather than seeing all that.
Better off dead.

What Are Words.

2011-03-04T13:20:00.001+08:00

"What are words
If you really don't mean them
When you say them
What are words
If they're only for good times
Then they don't
When it's love
Yeah, you say them out loud
Those words, They never go away
They live on, even when we're gone"

2011 American Idol castoff Chris Medina - the guy who touched everyone's hearts and possibly made us shed a little tear with his heartbreaking love story about his girlfriend who currently suffers from brain injury due to a car accident. This is so fucking sad.

Cry me out.

2011-03-04T05:08:00.000+08:00

She's the first English lady whom I adore. The husky voice, is the sexiest ever. Whoever has got the similar voice as her, I remind you do not ever sing in front of me or you might hypnotize me wif your voice. I warn ya!

Little H of myne.

2011-03-04T00:40:00.000+08:00

I always advised my friends to think positive. Whenever, wherever, fill your head with positive vibes but when I'm not in a good state, I've always filled my head with negative thoughts. Cause you know why? Cause of this fragile heart of myne. Indeed it is too fragile I just have to put a lil extra care towards it. Filled with negative thoughts so that it would be readied to receive any bad outcomes, or perhaps the negative thoughts will turn out good. It is always like that. Poor little H of myne. You have been hurting a lot nowadays, aye?

Hold on,

Note #2

2011-03-02T17:12:00.000+08:00

"No one's gonna love you more than I do."

Knowing nothing is better than knowing it all.

2011-03-02T16:10:00.000+08:00

Fuck you Aimi. You fucking knew the rule already, then why the fuck bother? Why the fuck man? Just fucking follow the rule, goddammit. Well, this is hell.

Manusia bodoh.

2011-03-02T15:12:00.002+08:00

Seriously,

2011-03-02T08:14:00.002+08:00

..this torturing phase has got to stop now. Tak larat dah babi wey.

Careful where you stand, my love.

2011-03-02T00:26:00.000+08:00

"I am cured, when I'm by your side."

Note #1

2011-02-28T04:50:00.000+08:00

I know,

You need to move on,

And you have found this one amazing dude,

But I'm still stuck here,

And you're still my most favorite human,

Even if that dude is now taking my place as your most perfect distraction. :)

You ~~meant~~ mean everything to me, still. :)

I survived the invasion.

2011-02-28T04:21:00.004+08:00

Last weekend, I participated an event called ID Day; 8-BIT Invasion at FSPU, UiTM Shah Alam. My friends opened up a booth so I was there to help. It was fun! Yeapp. Bit The Mendusa songs were everywhere. I sorta like this kinda thing, you know, this artsy fartsy thingy.. So why not aite?

We (Chaen and me) woke up late and Kae got mad like a mad dog. Arrived at 0930hours, unpacked stuffs and our booth was ready to go 30 minutes later.

Since Kae, Najwa and her crew wanted to participate with the games, so I had to stay there alone. No worries, Najwa had left her BB for me. :p Yeah, my friends surely know how to 'tame' me.

This is my MAGIC moment. You want to know what Magic is? Come hang out with me then I'll show you one. Look at the photo below. You see 6 bottles of soft drinks aite? Yeaa we bought it from the vending machine, of course! How much we paid for it? How muchhh you asked? 2 fucking notes baby. YEAH. 2 notes. From the vending machine. Magic much? Haha. How did we do that? Na-uh, not gonna tell, I'm not gonna tell!

When I look at the above photos, all I can think of is my childhood memories. Lego FTW yo! The stage was awesome. I envy artsy fartsy people. Yeah. I think it's so cool to have the ability to doodle, to do this kinda stuffs, people who related to artsy fartsy thingy, hear me out, I envy you guys.

And the event ended at 0000hours. I was exhausted like hell. Woke up way too early I guess. I dozed off in the car, even when they went out for late supper, I still dozed off like a baby, til I din know when was the time we reached home, and I went up upstairs and slept again.

Laters!

If only, if only.

2011-02-27T15:51:00.002+08:00

“If only, if only, the woodpecker sighs,
The bark on the tree was as soft as the skies.
The wolf waits below, hungry and lonely,
And cries to the moon,
If only if only.”

—	Madame Zeroni, Holes (2003)

Fast update #34

2011-02-27T15:32:00.000+08:00

"Even lovers need a holiday, far away from each other."

If ever,

2011-02-27T15:22:00.000+08:00

You found me sitting, standing alone, just let me be. There are certain times in life where I like to be just by my own, enjoying something.
I'm a loner, that's just who I am.

I know I know I know.

2011-02-26T05:15:00.000+08:00

"I know I know I know, you're still my love."

The game,

2011-02-25T05:04:00.000+08:00

..remains the same. Nothing's changing. Are we going to keep repeating the same cycle over and over again? Don't you get tired already? Because I am. Love, you're killing me.

Fast update #34

2011-02-25T01:46:00.001+08:00

Jyeah my favorite siblings are back again!
"You want the moon, girl watch me grab it" ;)

Fast update #33

2011-02-24T04:39:00.002+08:00

Hear the man.

Let it be.

2011-02-23T08:29:00.000+08:00

But I can be alone without Yoko, but I just have no wish to be. There’s no reason on earth why I should be alone without Yoko. There’s nothing more important than our relationship, nothing. And we dig being together all the time. Both of us could survive apart but what for? I’m not going to sacrifice love, real love for any whore or any friend or any business, because in the end you’re alone at night and neither of us want to be. And you can’t fill a bed with groupies. It doesn’t work. I don’t want to be a swinger. I’ve been through it all and nothing works better than to have someone you love hold you.John Lennon on Yoko Ono

Impurity.

2011-02-22T02:21:00.000+08:00

Do not try to impress me,
For detecting impurities are easy,
Be yourself whenever you are near me,
Then make me feels like living in fantasy.

A tortured soul.

2011-02-22T01:01:00.001+08:00

Sometimes I just hope God would just give me a break from all the messiness I'm facing. It's been 4 months. What are you trying to prove anyway? This little heart would not change. How many times do I have to tell you. It's been awhile. For not having the chance to look you straight in the eyes. I wonder what will happen if the day shall come later. Will I ever have the power to look you straight in the eyes again after all the shits we've been through. Of course I would. You have got the power and that power is jeopardizing everything. You have got the key. You have got the glue. The glue to fix this broken heart. This one tortured soul. And to mend this broken heart, what I can really do is,

I write my sorrow,
2 of my friends said that my blog is too sad,
Just a bit of what I'm feeling,
Pardon me,
I write so that I could ease the pain,
I write clearly not to show to the world how sad I am,
This is my way to ease the pain,
Read me, but never try to understand me.

I wish I could turn back time.

2011-02-22T00:50:00.000+08:00

"I wish I could turn back time."

Why is everybody wishing to turn back time?
To change what's already written?
To undo the mistakes?
To make things perfect?
But why?
I used to wish I could turn back time, but when I had some time to think,
There's no use to turn back time,
If I would have the chance to turn back time,
I would repeat the same mistakes twice,
People make mistakes by having too many chances given,
They do not learn from their mistakes if they have got so many chances in life,
Chances by chances, if were been given, they will take them for granted.
People are just people.

I do not wish to turn back time,
All I have is now,
To make things right again,
To fix what's broken,
Or just,
Leave..

Fast update #32

2011-02-21T23:31:00.000+08:00

Cute. Gotta teach Yaya to do the same thing!

R.I.P Ubertwitter.

2011-02-20T03:30:00.000+08:00

It's like the end of the world when Twitter declared the suspension of Ubertwitter from being the third client apps for Twitter. It is like the end of the world because up until now people are keep on talking about it.

If ever Twitter will be closed down? RIOT.

That's the only word I could ever imagined right now. Yes, riot. Perhaps World War III will start!

I would die, die because of Twitter.

I'm not being overreacted. Twitter is my source for everything. From news, to my source of jokes.

I'm going to proclaim that I really can't live without my Twitter, and to whoever that is still not in Twitter,

I bet you guys have missed the excitement of being the first one to know what's hot and what's not!

Really. Everything you need to know about the world, you can get it from Twitter. :D

Facebook is so last summer weh.

Text messaging is so last season. Direct Message ja sekarang ni. :p

Twitter FTW.

Okay; you can follow me; www.twitter.com/dorkscotch

Laters.

Mak oh Mak.

2011-02-19T05:20:00.000+08:00

Well, I suck terribly. No one stands me, obviously. I'm such an annoyance towards people around me. But there's this woman, no matter suck I am, she treats me as the way I want to be treated. This one special woman in my life;

Who ironed my uniform til my senior year in high school,

Who prepared my breakfast every morning before I went to school,

Who backs me up every time I get into trouble,

Who gives me her handphone whenever I'm home,

Who asks me at night what I want to eat the next day,

Who fed me during sahur cause I was so reluctant to even open my eyes,

Who makes my bed,

Who knows how to read my face expressions,

Who knows everything,

This special lady. Faziah binti Haji Abdul Halim. I love you, mom. This entry is supposed to be posted yesterday, Happy belated birthday, mak. The fact that she won't read my blog, would not change a thing. She's my mom, the most important person in the world. I don't know how to say this infront of her, so let me just express my feelings here in my blog. Hehe. Despite the fact I always alienate myself in my room doing my things, but you really have to know that you mean the world to me and I'm so sorry for being a terrible child for you.. I know I disappointed you, quite a lot lately. I'm sorry, mak. I'll make it up to you later, yes later.. I don't know when. This rebellious act is still burning within myself, I just don't know why. I hope you understand, and just please don't lose your hope on me. I love you so much.

Complicated.

2011-02-19T02:32:00.000+08:00

There's no way I would give you the exact directions. You have to think, you have to think thoroughly to know the truth. There's no easy way in this. There's no such things as cheat codes in this game called life. In order to win, think thoroughly, then you shall get the answers. This path is difficult. Not because I complicate things, but believe me, I just want to make this thing easier for us in future.

Fast update #31

2011-02-19T00:40:00.000+08:00

Gotta share this one good shit! Hahahaha!

Dream, reality, and memory.

2011-02-18T04:13:00.001+08:00

Three years ago,
You were a dream to me. To be able to have you would be the greatest thing ever. I kept it in my tiny little heart. Because I thought it would be impossible. Damn, it was impossible, wasn't it? The feelings I kept, for 3 years for God's sake. It was long. Because I am slow. I was afraid. Afraid you would reject me. I hate it. I din want you to reject me if I acted too fast. I acted slow, too slow and would not let you know my true feelings. I played the game my way. I got to know you, in silent way, of course. I met you for three times, enough to make me acted like an idiot. But still, the secret had been kept safe and sound. Because there was no way you would accept me, for God's sake. But I still, keep on liking you, and it was something, out of my control. Then I just knew, it wasn't just a crush, it was more than that. But I've figured it was not the time yet, so I kept it cool between us.

Two years ago,
Miracle happened. You were a reality. Who would have thought, you were finally mine. No one thought it would happened, no one had faith it would, but it did happened.. And I did mistakes. A human with full of mistakes. How could I let you down at that moment. I was a fool, still am a fool. I let you down. And still you gave me chances. Things went out of control. We had gone through everything together. Even the hardest thing together. It was hard. This love was hard. And we kept on held onto it. Because we wanted to. It was too strong, no one could ever break it. When there were too many pressures, and you surrendered.

Now,
You are just a memory, the sweet memory in my mind. And will always be there in my mind, cause that's where you belong. You are a permanent resident in my heart. Despite the hardships we have gone through, it do not ever change even a single thing. Not a single thing my dear love. Because really, you are the truth. As long as this heart keeps on beating, it will be beating in the name of you. You. Not anyone else. You..

True L.

2011-02-18T03:49:00.000+08:00

It waits no matter how long,
It makes you sing a song,
It endures every circumstance,
It makes you wanna dance,
It holds on to the end,
It makes you forget a friend,
It brings down your tears to the ground,
It makes you stop hearing sound.

Dela & Fida tied the knot.

2011-02-16T05:18:00.002+08:00

So last Saturday my old friend; Adela Firdaus has finally tied the knot with her choice; Ahmad Firdaus. (cool! you guys would be The Firdaus Family) at Klang (her hubby's side). Nicee. We were a lil bit late since Chaen got lost. Thank God I was wif Kae and the rest. Thank God Ziera (Kae's housemate) is from Klang. But still, we arrived at 1600hours and you know what? No more Ayam Masak Merah at that hour. :( Kenduri without Ayam Masak Merah = EPIC FAILED. But no worries, the food was delicious though. Before this we had planned to convoy from Shah Alam to Klang wif Najwa and the rest, but since WE WERE SO LATE (as they claimed we were) They ended up going first.

Failed! Chaen captured this. Thought so.

We din quite had time to take photos wif the bride and the groom. Yea because we were so damn late, and only relatives left so we decided to leave. Yeah there you have it, the only picture of us wif the Firdaus.

The caused of me not having my Ayam Masak Merah !!

It was heavily rain for a short while and continued to be hot again.
I was sweating like a fat pig. A really fatttt pig.

Cool much? I love the idea of bersanding dekat oldschool punya busstop like this.
So cooliooooooo. Saved budget too. Look at me? Cool, no? Okay you can kill me now.

Kiss my ass goodbye.

After the ceremony, Ziera asked us to join her to Pameran Pengantin Malaysia at SACC. Okay not all of you know what the fuck SACC is, it's Shah Alam Convention Centre. So I went like WTF. I din wanna go at first, but aaa, what the heck ye know? I had nothing to do anyway, then off we went to the so called Pameran!

This is like the most pricey pelamin of all; it's fucking 30k.
Really not fucking worth it for a day only. WTF.

Chaen and me menganjing alot and it made Kae so damn pissed.

Me; apadia suma nak tangkap gambaq?

Chaen; tu noh Kae. hang nak buat apa ni.

Me; gila bukan nak kawen lagi pon.

Chaen; tu aaaa hahahaha

Me; hahahahhaha

Kae; babi la hampa ni aku meluat jalan dengan hampa, aku tangkap gambaq nak buat contoh nanti2 senang.

*Kae left us*

HAHAHAHAHAHA. Kae emo pasal kahwin. WTF again. I borrowed Koda's cool camera; G11. And everyone is so in love wif it. Like seriously, after that we went to dataran to take some photos. And bermulalah episod photofreak kami.

Then we decided to go to Quality Hotel for karaoke. And the night ended. Joyfully. Because of the photos. Thank you baby G11. I'm gonna do you right, later, mwah mwah. Okay that's it. The rest of the photos have been uploaded into Kae's FB's account.

Laters !

To love,

2011-02-16T03:18:00.000+08:00

To love is to know,
To love is to care,
To love is accept,
To love is to trust,
To love is to have faith,
To love is to be a forgiver,
To love is to forget everything in the past,
To love is to give chance by chance,
To love is to look straight in the eyes,
To love is to hold you tight,
To love is to tolerate,
To love is to just to love.. No further explanations.

Perfect.

2011-02-15T06:38:00.004+08:00

I see imperfections.
Each and every imperfection I see,
is what make things become perfect.
I don't need perfection.
I had perfection.
I used to chase for perfection.
Well,
not anymore.

Imperfections.
I see imperfections in you.

And that make me chasing for more.

Wanting for more.
Everything for more.

You have made me wanting to write again.
You have the ability to make me write again.
My messed up mind is alive again.

And I want to write this and that.
Writing this and that.
Writing to make you understand.

What is this feel like.
It feels close to heaven.
Not that perfect,
but it feels good.
Damn, this is good.

This is feel like heaven.
Close to heaven.
But not that close,
because it still has its imperfections.

But I love it.
I swear to God I love it.

Wanting for more.
Exploring for more.

Hear me,
Hear me out,
Please hear me out this one time,

:)

2011-02-15T05:55:00.003+08:00

It isn't something I wished for, but it slowly is coming my way. I know you're acknowledging what is coming our way, if it's meant to be, then it is meant to be,

Terrified. I'm terrified.

Liar liar pants on fire!

2011-02-14T05:02:00.005+08:00

So you thought you are right now on the right path, I know the feeling you're feeling now.

You must be proud. It is everything that everyone see, yeah, me included.

You're not going to know, until later, and when you already knew, I'm gonna laugh, I'm gonna laugh hard, but you're not gonna realize that I'm laughing hard, because I would be laughing behind your back, I'm laughing hard because of your own stupidity, because you thought you have won the game, but you are not, ..

And you don't even realize it.

How pity is that?

What you're seeing now is pure, crystal clear, no way you would know the shits behind the pureness, no way, because you have been blinded, and I'm gonna laugh hard at you because of that, mate. Gonna give you some time to enjoy, and watching you screw up later.

It'll be fun.

It'll be fun seeing someone screwed you over, get screwed.

Be proud, man! (while you still can) because later you'll end up crying, .. hard.

Believe me.

The day will come.

And I shall wait patiently.

Wisemen once said; only fools rush in. I am no fool.

I play the game, using my way.

Even if it doesn't work out now, you shall see later.

Everything that is build based on lies, will tragically ends wif lies too.

Experience has taught me this.

"Stop telling him your love is on fire, because you are nothing more than just a liar." - @M_Jacksparrow

I know.

2011-02-13T17:43:00.003+08:00

That my time is up. I got the chance then I blew it away,

Why is it when the easiest path comes my way,

I've always behaved like this,

Guess that easy way is never meant for me..

And why only now ?

A promise.

2011-02-12T02:05:00.001+08:00

I will never let you fall,

I'll stand up wif you forever,

I'll be there through it all,

Even if saving you sends me in heaven.

This thing. That stops me.

You complained.

2011-02-11T16:40:00.002+08:00

,..I am so hard to understand.

The thing is dear, if it's easy for you to understand me, then you would know my weaknesses,

You would know everything,

I will be weak,

Like before,

Weak,

The word I want to get rid off my life dictionary,

I no longer want anyone to know me,

I won't lose this game, again,

Not this time,

Of giving up.

2011-02-10T20:06:00.002+08:00

It isn't the matter of giving up,

This is not giving up,

I'd rather call it as giving time to think,

Giving spaces,

And not to feel as you stuck in a moment and you can't get out,

Not to be a burden,

To let that certain someone flies,

Flies to wherever it wants to fly,

A little bird needs to fly,

It'll come back when the time comes,

Or it will never will,

That's a risk you must face,

A risk I took,

Responsibility,

What about it?

A promise,

A promise I made,

I made this one promise to myself,

And that promise stops me,

Stops me from what?

No,

I shall keep it only for myself,

For you guys out there would never understand.

Dream came true, yes it did!

2011-02-10T01:28:00.004+08:00

My current obsession is towards Lisa Surihani. Everytime I see her tweets I would go like WHOAAAAAAA that avatarrr, that avatar that brights my dayyyss WHOAAAAAAAAAAAA. Okay, I shall stop acting like this. But really, and there was time one time, I dreamt about going to Langkawi wif her. (would you fucking stop dreaming already, Aimi?) Haha and I answered questions on Formspring (yea I used the provided questions by Formspring since no one wants to ask me, not even a single question. Nayy, I'm not a superstar like 'dia' tuuu :p) So it automatically asked me this;

The magical thing that happened a week after that, JENG JENG JENGGGGGGGGGGGG;

Recognize the girl? SCOREDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. I FUCKING MET THIS GIRL ON OUR WAY TO LANGKAWI. WHO THE FUCK SAID DREAMS ARE FOR DREAMERS? WE DREAM AND WE MAKE IT HAPPENS, YES WE DO! HAHAHAHAHAHA.

Okay. That's so not cool. Back to the cool Aimi. Hermm. Hehehehe. Bloody hell, you wouldn't believe it, how I reacted after looking at the beautiful face. It was like looking at the angel

Laters!

Heaven on earth.

2011-02-10T00:57:00.010+08:00

Firstly I should say thanks to Nad and Nab for taking me to the Langkawi Trip. Thanks buddies. :D It was a trip organized by MSU's Business Fac's Students (correct me if I'm wrong). Nothing much to say, Langkawi is Langkawi. Nothing good to brag about this island. The first thing I noticed was Baskin Robbin. It's been 11 years since I last visited this island. I still remember dad always had meetings on that island. And we would went there back and forth and this one time, I told my dad to stop taking me to the island because I was so bored already. And yes, he did stop, after he had retired. Ha ha ha.

Again, I would not tell you guys about my journey from A to Z. It'd be boring (truthfully; I'm not in the mood to write a long entry). Just fucking look at the photos, will ya?

Stayed at I-don't-fucking-remember-what-the-name-is Motel. It was so so. Brekkie provided ! The first thing we did after we checked in, we went to the beachhhhhh.

I've told you before and I'm gonna tell you again; this is a must pose !

resting for awhile, we went for Island Hopping, as expected, the first stop was Pulau Dayang Bunting.

Yeah this is the lake at Pulau Dayang Bunting. I made a wise decision to wear a safety jacket. It scared me to death just to think what's beneath the 15m lake. I can swim and float, but this one? No thanks. I'd rather be a lame-o than be a stupid twat.

Our motel was located near Pantai Cenang. Thus we went for a walk on the evening to watch the sunset at the beautiful Pantai Cenang. I wish I was there wif someone special. I wish I could walk through the beach whilst holding hands. This is not jiwang. This is just an expression you idiot. The sands were as soft as flour as what LS tweeted. Yeap yeap yeap, she was in Langkawi wif me, apa tak puas hati? Hehe ;p

A bottle of shisha, a beach, wif bitches. Life is good, afterall. :D

The tour guide said to us, Ikan Bakaq is a must during lunch hour in Langkawi. To hell wif that, I ate my Ayam Masak Merah instead.

The tour guide talked way lots. She tried making some jokes, but sorry. It wasn't working, not at all. All the lame jokes were just, duhh, boring. I couldn't believe there are some people actually laugh by looking at some random videos on youtube. And they actually LAUGH like they mean it. Whattehell, so lame. I wonder if you were destined to meet my eldest brother, you will be laughing to death because he is a true joker. A legend I must say.

Inside the cable car, weeeeeeee. Thank God I ain't an Acrophobia, or am I? Nayyy. Am not! A little scared here and there is acceptable.

The view is heavenly heaven. You know what the first thing I did when I reached there? I took a crap.. Hahahaha. Very disturbing aite? Sorry my dear readers. This is me, whether you leave my blog or stay to hell wif that. I don't fucking caree.

Waiting for our turn to go downn. There I was, sitting alone. I was tired, I needed a place to seat. You know I'm the type who walks alone, sits alone, does my job alone, literally, I am a loner. It's not that I don't socialize. But sometimes when I need to think, I would alienate myself in my room for days and do my own job. Guess this is me. There are times when I need my own space. Away from everything, but of course, not from the internet. I love you lah, I. :p

Our night session continued. Gahh, it felt so good. But it only lasted for 3 days. For me Langkawi is just a place for holidays, to permanently stay there? Hell no. I won't.

I had a great time, met new friends, gained more experienced.

Well Langkawi, we shall meet again. :)

Laters.

Tuwentee-six months.

2011-02-08T03:57:00.004+08:00

It was too sad to wish last month. When everything was terrible. It was extremely terrible til I don't know what to do anymore. Til I actually forgot what has happened on that night, on that hour, 2004hours, I shall never forget that hour, that hour you said yes, that hour, the most amazing thing had happened to me, exactly at that hour, believe me when I say this, it was like a dream came true, yes it was, dream came true.

Despite everything, I'm still going to say this,

F&E, B.

When people flirt with the person you like/love.

2011-02-07T20:40:00.002+08:00

Believe me, observing is HARD.

Beautifully said.

2011-02-07T14:48:00.003+08:00

My rags of heart can like, wish, and adore,

But after one such love, can love no more.

This is the truth.

I have got a heart no one could break,

nor could shake.

3 Sekawan.

2011-02-06T20:49:00.005+08:00

Dari kecik tak penah lekat rumah.

Selalu keluar naik basikal dengan membe.

Rumah tu tempat makan mandi tidur.

Time umur 4 tahun - 7 tahun.

Pindah ke Jalan Pipit.

Lagi sakan ronda taman.

Main petang-petang.

Meningkat remaja lagiii tak lekat rumah.

Mesti keluar naik basikal. Even without it, aku jalan kaki. Apa kesah.

Jalan kaki dari City Plaza ke rumah. Sebab apa? Malas nak cal ayah datang jemput.

Pujuk ayah beli basikal. First basikal kaler kuning. Hehehe. Sumpah tak suka pon kaler kuning, tapi tengok macam smart. Beli jalah.

Lepak medan setiap petang makan ABC. Of course dengan kawan-kawan. Naik basikal ambik Akie kat rumah dia.

Tetiap petang aku kena 'carry' dia lepastu kami lepak rumah Syam. Pernah satu hari p lepak rumah Syam, tiba2 kereta mak dia sampai depan gate. Kami celapak lari nak balik. Mak dia brutal gila, 'woi hampa nampak aku hampa lari sepa'

Gila memang la lari, garang nak mati. He he he.

Ronda basikal sampai ke atas ban. Pernah jugak p kacau 3 sekawan ni.

Pernah ada scene lepas balik tusyen. Macam biasa, aku carry Akie. Nampak 3 sekawan ni dok berjalan tonggek, aku tak pakai spek, Akie lah yang cakap. Bapak lagi, memang kena kejar la.

Sampai dekat, dok buat senyum kambing, 'Hai p mana ni jalan tgh2 panaih?' 'Biaq la nak p mana pon jgn sebok boleh dak?' 'Ler sepa yang garang sgt ni' 'Jangan dok kacau orang boleh dak' Lepastu dengan serentaknya aku dan Akie cakap 'gedik la hampa 3 ni dahla jalan terjengket jengket!' dan terus blah. Ha ha ha.

Nakal.

Kalau kat sekolah pulak, 3 sekawan ni lagi la. Gedik Ya Allah. Tapi masalahnya sekarang, aku terlekat dengan sorang tu. Yang tu la yang jalan terjengket-jengket. Ramai cakap dia gedik. Aku pon cakap dia gedik. Hahaha. Kalo time sekolah sumpah aku tak pergi tegur budak tu. Sebab nanti kena kutuk dengan geng. Kalau selisih jalan time rehat, lagi lah. Dia dok buat senyum, aku pandang belah lain. Balik sekolah malam-malam dia yang salu cal rumah.

'Hello, Aimi ada tak'

'Ha. Awat.'

'Aimi watpa ni.'

'Dok on. Awat.'

'Kacau ka?'

'Kacau skit. Hahaha. Awat dok keja cal tetiap malam?'

'Takleh ka nak cal?'

'Boleh. Tapi nak cakap apa. Esok jumpa kat sekolah. Petang jumpa kat taman. Nak apa lagi.'

'Ha takpalah bye.'

*Letak phone.

Kahkahkah.

Syukur tak kelas sekali. Tapi time English, aku kena p kelas dia sebab kami dua Set A. Memang tak la aku sembang dgn dia. Aku pon tak paham kenapa. Aku ada buku. Cover keras penuh dengan papan tanda. Buku conteng la kira. Ada aku tulis pasal dia dalam buku tu. Gambar Linkin Park, tag aku pergi gathering time MIRC dulu apa semua. And tiba-tiba, waktu rehat, dia p masuk kelas aku curi buku tu. Sumpah menyirap nak mati. Aku email dia tanya kenapa curi buku aku. Dia jawab dia curious nak tau cerita apa aku tulis. Lepastu dia gelak. Lepastu aku macam, ...... babi la budak ni. Esok tu dia pulak bagi something kat aku. Macam cartoon la.

'Orang cakap kalau kening kiri gerak ada orang rindu bla bla bla'

'Kening taknah gerak yada yada'

'Tapi dia salu cakap dia rindu aku'

Hokayyyyyyyyy, dia nak cakap aku tipu la tu. Kami selalu jumpa atas tangga. Dok sembang dua. Akie suka kacau. Kat mana kami p mesti ada pengacau. Tak Akie, Sotong yang kacau. Aku dengan dia pergi sekolah naik basikal. Comel kan? Tapi dia selalu pergi sekolah awal. Balik sekolah aku akan tunggu dia, tunggu dekat bangsal basikal. Dia selalu lambat. Biasala jalan terhegeh hegeh. Aku ofkos la cepat. Loceng bunyi terus terjun tangga nak balik.

Banyak gak memori syok. Oleh sebab banyak sangat pengacau dan pencacai, dia ajak aku p jogging taman rimba hari sabtu. Dia datang rumah pagi tu sebab aku lewat bangun tidur. Lepastu kayuh la basikal ke Taman Rimba.. Sumpah comel. Jogging berapa round tah, lepastu kami lepak Taman Rimba sampai tengah hari. :D

Banyak benda jugak kami dua sembang. Pasal family dia, family aku. Family dia sangat la lasak. Kakak kembar dia menang johan 4WD challenge dekat Janda Baik masuk paper. Aku macam, WHOA STAINYA. And dia cakap nanti dia nak panjat Gunung Keriang ikut ayah dia. Aku pon taknak kalah, aku cakap la haritu aku panjat Gunung Jerai. Lepastu dia gelak dia cakap adik dia umur 5 tahun panjat Gunung Jerai pakai selipar ja.

MORAL DOWN........ Dia gelak gila babi, aku pon macam, 'ah sudah ah takmau cakap apa dah'

Lepas matahari dah naik, perut aku pon lapar gila, aku ajak dia balik rumah, and dia ajak aku ikut jalan atas ban. Aku pon macam, 'adaka jalan nak tembuih masok situ' dia kata ikut jala cakap banyak kenapa! Yea, budak ni memang perangai macam ni, aku pon ikut jalah, hehe. Naik basikal dua orang atas ban. Sumpah comel. Macam dalam cerita Autumn In My Heart. :) Aku pakai cap time tu, cap C warna merah. Sebab apa warna merah? Sebab dia pernah cakap dia suka warna merah. :)

Hehe. Kenangan indah.

Dah.

Malas type dah.

Latersssssss.

Again. .

2011-02-04T03:59:00.003+08:00

Never thought tonight I would know the truth, the truth that has happened for quite sometime. Maybe I was too stupid to trust, to put my 100% trust. Really LDR, you got me twice I must say. And this is the final straw. For God's sake this is the final straw. I won't look back, not anymore, this is too much for me to handle. Being lied by an innocent faced. Hehe. Now I know why the older said never judge a book by it's cover. Lesson learned. The first time was a mistake, what about the second time? Was it a mistake too? Nay, it was a choice.. And I'm finally done being stupid.

"And all the shit you put me through, I'm holding on, by letting go of you,.."

Chapter closed.

Laters.

Farewell of Summer Romance.

2011-02-03T16:22:00.004+08:00

We're dying for the night; the stars are waiting for us, tingling in our eyes, to stroke the heat of the action way away beyond expectations

Appealing, charming, you are, please stay with me, and let's do this together everlastingly
The frame of mind, don't start going back, I'm yours and you're mine, we belong to each other forever,
Darling don't leave now, this is my summer romance, for us, when sun shines bright in the morning, let's wait for that

Are you with me?
We went through the hardest and we made it, yeah we've made it, so far

Goodbye, goodbye, don't make it thrice

Goodbye, goodbye, it's okay, it's alright, fine well have it your way,
What do I do, when my summer is wholly unfilled and empty?
I want to go home, be right beside you, kiss your lips, and embrace those cute pink braces

To save me, from where I came from, it was dark and still, I'm so scared
Correct me when I'm wrong, you've been my true inspiration, I've changed for good, and it's all because of you

Infection of the love disease is more than I could ever imagine, the city smoke his pride and the beach water it clearly
Are you with me?
We went through the hardest and we made it, yeah we've made it, so far

If you want me, wait till the time comes,
I'm saving myself for you; love is more than just sex
Well I do want you, and I'll wait till the time comes
I'm saving myself for you; I heart you so much

Biebtards.

2011-01-14T19:05:00.001+08:00

Me; why the hell you guys wanna go to JB's concert?

Nephews; we're gonna be surrounded by HOT chicks. SO. MANY. HOT CHICKS.

Me; brilliant.

My nephews are so pandai.

#tolongingatkanaku

2011-01-12T03:25:00.004+08:00

#tolongingatkanaku esok aku kena bangun awal drive balik ke Alor Star.

#tolongingatkanaku buat resume kaw kaw nak hantar ke syarikat-syarikat aviasi.

#tolongingatkanaku untuk bangun, lupa semua benda yang jadi.

#tolongingatkanaku supaya jangan toleh belakang dah.

Dah hilang orang yang boleh tolong ingatkan semua benda tu. Kena ingatkan diri sendiri.

"Biar luka sembuh sendiri

Biar lupa ditebus hari"

Poetic lyric from a song; Tolong Ingatkan Aku by Ana Raffali. I never thought she could win AJL but she did.. Yeah since I never supported her before. I did knew her from somewhere but never bothered to know her more. Only after she won, I took sometime to view her covers on youtube. Not bad. She covered most of my fav songs okay; Unintended, With or Without You, Creep, loads more. Girls who listen to that kinda songs are totally cool. :p I know a lot of Malaysians who watched the program were kinda unsatisfied with the result. But who are you guys to say such things to her? For FUCK's sake, the program called JUARA LAGU, not JUARA TERJUN KOLAM or JUARA SUARA SEDAP or bla bla bla. M. Nasir and the rest of the juries knew what to choose, leave it to them. Why you need to attack her on twitter as if korang bagus sangat? For at least she has got something to be proud for. What about you guys? Nothing okay? And me defending her right now is not about she is like the chubby version of Lisa Surihani okay (kantoi). No no. I just thought it is not polite to criticize her in such way. One question; CEMANA INDUSTRY MUSIC nak maju if mentality our own people macam fuck up? Like seriously macam fuck up. You guys can't accept changes, or something way different from what you guys used to hear nor see. Please think like engineers. Please think way out of the box. How to achieve Wawasan 2020 if our mentality still low? How? Okay her voice wasn't that good, that was the reason why Hafiz won the best vocal. Aite? Duh. One thing, if you're stupid, don't act like you KNOW everything. Leave it to experts. It's their expertise. Boohoo. Malu ja. Okay? Okay?

Well it's just my thought. I hate seeing so many negative thoughts spreading on twitter you know.. She's a Malaysian, if we don't support A Malaysian Artist, then who will? Indonesians? YOU WISH.

Laters.

Pa pap americano.

2011-01-07T20:16:00.003+08:00

They said time will heal. It takes time for everything. Keep your head up for greater things coming ahead. They said it's not easy too. They said past is past. You shall never look back ever again. They said if she kept on doing the same thing to hurt you, it's no longer worth the wait. They said that too. People keep on talking. Whispering in my ears. They have said too much. Just stop. Stop saying those things for I already knew. Let me have my time this time. Let me have my own way, this time.

:)

2011-01-03T02:41:00.001+08:00

A random post.

tuwenty-oh-eleven.

2011-01-02T03:13:00.003+08:00

THANKS 2010;
for the new friends I made

for the friends who stuck with me through thick and thin

for the bitches that backstabbed me

for the people who just walked out of my life. dont come back.

for the people who broke my heart. thanks a lot.

for the people who made me happy. :)

most of all… this is for me on still being awesome, and will be awesome in 2011

always be, baby.

Aimi Abdullah.

-courtesy of tumblr.

Ways to mend a broken heart.

2010-12-27T02:34:00.004+08:00

Haha. What's wif the title? An anonymous asked me this question on Formspring. WOW. Why would you asked me? FYI, I'm still 'in rehab'.. You know when they say 'when love goes wrong, nothing goes right..' Ya'll ever heard of the quote? Of course you did if you ever watched The Love Guru. Okay guys. Breaking up wif your gf/bf sure will put a lot of pressure on you. No one can deny that. But that's not mean your world has just ended. Come on.

Hear this man, hear ze mann. Stop being sad, be OHSEM instead ! It's not that hard.
Don't be a psycho. You don't go whoaa baby I can't live without you baby crying to your ex every 5 minutes of the day? =_=

I've been dumped too. I'm sad too. My world has just ended the minute my baby said our relationship is over. My heart was torn in pieces. It feels like falling from a 100 storey building after I have stepped on the ladder til the top wif hardships. Haiyo how to describe that one. So hard. It gets even harder cause I love my baby so much, I really really do..

But that's just life. People come and go. People came into your life, made your life became wonderful, and after that, they went away. That's just life.. People change, and no matter how I hate changes, I just have to accept the fact. Accepting the fact isn't a big deal, isit? It takes one strong mind to face all the challenges coming ahead.

Love your ex not by showing her your psychotic behaviors. One thing you can do is, you can let her fly.. Let her choose what's the best for her. Things that make her happy. If you are no longer the reason why you can see smiles on her face, maybe you need to step away and let other guy that can do that to replace your place. That sounds ruthless isnt it? But that's just life. If you don't treat your lady rightly, THEN SOMEONE ELSE WOULD.

That's just it. Laugh at me because posting this kinda entry. All I can say is I've learned from my experience.. I had been quite 'naughty' when I was in high school. Been ego. Been weak. Been slow. Those things that have taught me to accept failures.

If you feel like losing your way, no matter how hard, even if you have to crawl to be on that track again, so be it. It's too lame to lose your way because of L word, ye get what I'm sayin?

Laaaaaaaaaaaaterrrrrrrrsssssss.

Lasers make the world go round, no?

2010-12-27T01:07:00.006+08:00

I was being entertained by these ppl. Because of ze match, Malaysia vs Indonesia. Yeah. Ze match where you had seen some idiotics Malaysian supporters have pointed out lasers to the Indonesian goalie. It was a stupid act, I agreed.

I never meant to join the chaos, but someone has messed with my sis who is studying in Medan. WTF. He said 'fuck, ada hati lagi mau kuliah di sini ya'

And started to send her some threads.. maybe I was over reacted when I replied his tweets, I should have ignored it from the beginning, but ergh you know, if it's about my sis, I am bound to be protective towards her.

See for yourself lah Indonesians. What you GAVE you get back okay?
Only after I watched this;

Now I know why they attacked the Indo goalie back. *sigh

Dont eff wif the effers la next time okay?

Malaysia is awesome because we have Lisa Surihani !!
Laters.

143.

2010-12-25T14:29:00.005+08:00

Seeing you, seeing me.
Pretending not to, but who are you to fool someone who has been with you all these while,
someone who has seen the worst and good side of you for two years,
who has knew you inside out..

If it's meant to be, then it is meant to be..

Penang Trip yo.

2010-12-20T17:13:00.008+08:00

Arrived at 0700hours. Nad HAD to go back to KL since the psycho ex boyfie of her made some chaotic scenes I'd rather not spill it in here. :D Ah, message from me; if you have been dumped by your gf, no matter how you LOVE her so damn MUCH, no matter how FUCKED UP your life has been since she gone, come on la wey don't act like a psycho. Malu malu. As if you takda life. MALU WEY. Takda ***** ka? =_= You takda life jangan kacau orang lain punya life la, lifeless people (to anyone yang pernah buat macam ini). From 5 to only 4 people. We had to do what we had to do..

It was a really long journey. Tired, wif an empty stomach. We made a pit stop to the famous Nasi Kandaq in Penang; LINE CLEAR !

Nasi putih kuah campoq ayam madu bendi dua anney ! Just look at my face. I just gave you my complete orgasm looked. LOL.

And the night was so awesome when we stepped in to Hard Rock Cafe, for free. :D

The band for the first night we entered HRC. This extra marvelous band I wish I knew their band name is ! They rocked so hard and entertained us with tracks mostly from Guns n Roses, KISS, Nirvana, Aerosmith, etc and lastly, a Malay song from an unknown band called Permaisuri. And the singer sempat lagi meloteh "rock rock jugak, tapi dalam hati ada taman.

Yeah man this is the song. And I sang all the way til the end of the song whilst my mind was thinking about someone. :) I need not to mention who..

We couldnt get enough of HARD ROCKKKK ! One day I must stay here, I dont care, I will !

Bajet tourists.. At Batu Feringghi.

Toy Museum; One of my dreams is to collect EVERY TOY I once wanted when I was a kid when I have a steady job because my dad was to stingy to buy em for me.

Stuffs from Penang. Hehe banyak barang kebas dari HRC. Thank you bro bro yang baik hati bagi kami kebas. :D #nowreading John Grisham - The Runaway Jury.

Laters !

The Key.

2010-12-17T18:50:00.000+08:00

Benda Paling Rindu Part 2.

2010-12-17T16:28:00.007+08:00

Ho ho ho, jum kita sambung balik cerita pasal kenangan time aku OJT. I just woke up and it's already 1648hours. Wuhoo, it's been a longgg time since I last woke up during this hour. Perangai lama Aimi datang balik yeah. Saya taknak jadi morning person dah.. Aitee, cerita pasal MC, memang sumpah rekod MC aku yang pegang dekat MAS tu. Hahaha. Memang bebudak MIAT yang lain kalah la dengan aku. SO nak di jadikan cerita, tengah aku dalam cabin time tu dok buat PSU (Passenger Safety Unit), ada budak bagi surat kat aku. Aku dah buat muka cuak, tengok-tengok aku dapat warning letter. Hahahah. Semua orang gelak kat aku, sebab muka aku cuak sangat time tu. Yalah, takut aku kena tendang apa aku nak jawab dekat Pak Lah merangkap bapak aku. Wuuwuuu ketaq. Baca surat tu, aku kena bagi respond within one week of time, okay okay takdak hal boleh ja aku buat karangan english dekat Incik Ghaffar apadahal. Tapi aku bengong dok tangguh-tangguh sampai seminggu lebih, INCIK GHAFFAR ONN TU P CAL BAPAK AKU. NOH. Jem kepala otak. P cal big boss pulak aiii, pak aku dahla suka pikir terok-terok. Memang terok la aku kena. Berjela-jela message pak aku bagi, suruh sabar sat la praktikal nak habis dah, kesian mak ayah. Dalam hati menyumpah dah p cal pak aku sepa taktau. Then aku p cal IG aku cakap la dah buat respond letter cuma tak print out lagi ja pon. Lepastu aku naik office SATO, aku jumpak Minhaj aku explained semua benda, and Minhaj kata OKAY. See. Benda simple ja pon tu pon nak kecoh. Bangga gak la pernah dapat warning letter dari MAS.. Ingat senang? :p

Lepastu aku bertekad takmau MC dah. Nak jadi apa jadi la. Aku kena sign in jugak everyday. Agak-agak berjaya ak? So lepas Line 2, group E masuk Line 3 pulak. Line ni kenai dengan sorang pakcik mai dari Naka. Haha aku dok kutuk dia boo boo asai Naka. Hahah syok dia relax ja. Cakap aku hang ja dengan aku. Rasa tak hormat orang tua pulak. Tapi dia yang start nak buek camno laei. Line 3 ni pon aku tidoq banyak jugak, tapi tak la tidoq dekat holding rack dah, kat dalam line ni banyak aircraft seat, pilih la sorang satu. Heaven gak. LAE yang incharge dalam line ni time tu, LAE Was. Nama nak stai ja kan Was? Tu nickname dia, aku pon taktau nama betol dia apa. Memang banyak kali la dia dok nampak aku tidoq. Sampai pakcik Naka tu mai kejut 'woi hang tidoq apa banyak-banyak, was dok usha hang tidoq" dan dan time tu aku terbangun lepastu lap ayaq liuq dekat jaket. Hahaha macam bangang tapi ngantok gila nak buat cena. Kerja dalam Line 3 boleh tahan la best. Was banyak ajar kami, kalo nak mintak sign log book pon dia tanya soalan dulu sorang-sorang. Nasib baik time aku dia tanya pasai pitot/static drain keluar kat mana. Hahah Of course la boleh jawab wok dah before tu LAE Yong dah penah tunjuk. Yeah yeah. Mula-mula buat muka cuak lepas boleh jawab ja dan-dan muka bangga. Perangai huduh kan?

Akhirnya minggu-minggu terakhir dekat Hangar 1. Masuk pulak Line 4. Time ni memang determined gila nak buat kerja sungguh-sungguh. And we did. Almost everyday kami semua buat kerja sampai penat. Harapan nak bagi log book penuh la dengan task-task yang kami dah buat. Dah habis kapal tu blah, kami baru terhegeh nak cari task card, berita yang paling buat aku demotivated time tu, task card depa dah deleted dah, noh. Memang kena sungguh la time tu. Dahla time tu dah start ada masalah perrybuddy. Memang double fuck jugak. Rasa down terok-terok. Rasa sia-sia buat kerja if tak isi log book. You guys maybe tak paham, tapi kami, I mean semua Aircraft Maintenance students ni ada satu log book khas kena isi semua job yang kami buat so that kami boleh sit for exam. Untuk ambik basic license la basically.. Nak cerita pasal ni serious sampai esok pon tak habis. Orang yang tau tu tau la.. :) So dah lepas down pasal tu, seminggu straight kami takdak kerja. Duduk dalam holdng room dok main iphone, dok sembang, tengok orang main psp, tu ja lah.. So one day aku determined nak melencong, sebab that day was so not productive. Nak tidoq rasa dah tidoq banyak, hp pon senyap ja, memang tak boleh jadi. Ajak kawan-kawan kuaq. Hahaha. Time ni la terus jadi pandai melencong. :D

Cakap la semua mall kami p, OU? Sunway? Midvalley? The Curve? Semua beb. Layan movie pa bagai. Semuaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Memang tak pernah lekat dah dalam Hangar 1. Lantak la. Time tu memang takdak kerja lansung. Lepak lagi bes dengan pakai jaket kilang tu. Layan kot. Bertambah-tambah rapat laa aku dengan geng junior tu. Hehe depa pon memang masuk kepala. So dah puas duduk 2 bulan dekat Hangar 1, kami pindah ke Hangar 2 pulak. Dalam bangunan Malaysia Airlines betol-betol. Line 5, line best jugak ni.. Time ni kapal Brussel Airlines, (dont tell me you dunno where Brussel is okay?) Kapal baru, layan Airbus pulak. Dah lama sangat layan Boeing kan.. Airbus best, complicated sikit, tapi overall okay la. More complicated yet supercool and teratur sikit.. Time dalam Line ni, kami semua rapat dengan Ili. Umur tua setahun pada aku. Dia ni hegeh sikit hahaha memang camtu kot perangai dia. Dok menyanyi gedik-gedik sambil buat kerja. Dia suka pelok aku lepastu cakap 'waa besnye pelok Aimi banyak isi'. Sumpah tak larat nak tepis, tapi dia baik kot. Suka belanja kami makan sebab kami banyak tolong dia buat kerja kat dalam cabin. Haha. Thanks Ili. Yelah, dia dah kerja dekat setahun dalam MAS tu. Gaji jangan cakap lah berapa banyak. Jeles jugak kat dia. Muda lagi dah ada stable job, ingat senang?

Aku banyak kali jugak Missing In Action dekat Line 5 ni. Lead Technician pon macam faham-faham jugak. Kena perli sebijik haritu cakap aku pakai bomoh kejap ada kejap tak. Memang la aku nak kisah kan.. Haha. Pernah ada scene kami kena marah dengan Quality Assurance. Rasa fucked up time tu. Yalah kami budak-budak kot baru ja habis buat kerja dah kena marah. Kena marah sebab buat kerja dekat Holding Room. Memang rules tak bagi buat kerja dalam holding room, tapi incik QA, kalau dah working area tu besaq walk way ja camna kami nak buat kerja? PSU Airbus leceh kot, dahla ada banyak bahagian, mampoih la kami nak ambik satu-satu buat kat working area yang tah papa tu. Cakap tak pikior dlu aku debik jugak kot. Cey berani cakap kat sini jala. Sebab time tu dia pointed his finger kat aku, soh cari technician mana yang suruh kami buat kat situ. Dalam kepala otak nak sebut ja nama Ili, tapi kesian pulak dekat dia. Aku punya la melilau cari orang, p dekat LAE yang dok lepak kat belakang, depa suma diam. Bangang gak la time tu, depa takmau take the responsibility, Kang the lead technician pon takdak time tu. Pergh. Budak-budak trainess yang kena. Memang tak bertanggungjawab lansung ah. Pastu we ended up remained silent and lantak lah dekat dua orang QA tu nak kata apa. Kami bolayann, sampai depa keluar dari bilik tuu p marah sapa pulak. Semua dok gelak cakap aku buat muka cuak. Haha bodo memang la cuak dah aku yang kena soal bodoh gak la yang penyoal pon muka budak-budak ja dengan rambut mcm durian. Sama tinggi pulak dengan aku. Ikut hati debik ja ni, tapi lepastu confirm la takleh keja terus dalam tu. Hehehe. P mati la, Aimi.

*to be continued lagi..

Benda Paling Rindu Part 1.

2010-12-16T03:07:00.005+08:00

*I wrote this not for you guys to read, it's for my self. My self reference in future. So dont bother reading it, ey?*

First week OJT ada Safety Course for 3 days (mampos aa aku nak cakap manglish), course ni wajib hadir kalau tak tak boleh OJT dekat MAS. Atttended the course, mengantuk jangan cakap la.. Duduk depan sekali pulak tu. Memang tidur jala keja. Hehe. Awal-awal takut lagi dengan environment dalam MAS, yalah budak baru belajar kut. Tengok orang pandang slack ja dengan budak-budak pakai Jaket MIAT ni. Tapi dalam hati kata, tadak hal lah. Belum kenal belum tau (muntah). Last sekali MCP Wan Jamal bahagi kami semua dalam group. Memula dia cakap dulu group leaders for each group, mai tang Group E, nama "Aimi Sarah Abdullah" jadi leader. Aku terus jam gila babi. Dalam hati "why me why me babi naharam kenapa" Ha ha ha. Tapi selamber ja turun bawah salam dengan MCP buat senyum kambeng dalam hati cakap fuh, tanggungjawab besar ni (p mampoih).

Lepastu nasib baik ada jugak budak kelas; Mas dengan Mie satu group dengan aku, dengan 3 junior. Depa pon intro la sorang nama Bert, sorang lagi Anaqi, sorang lagi Afnan. Okaylah semua macam slamber ja bagi kerjasama. Dalam kepala otak cakap bagus la macam ni mesti boleh punya lah. Lepastu SATO (Senior Apprentice Training Officers) pulak di perkenalkan dekat kami semua oleh Incik Ghaffar. Kira macam depa ni lah yang jaga kami dekat MAS. Apa-apa hal kena rujuk kat depa lah. Nampak nice ja, dalam hati cakap mintak-mintak smooth ja perjalanan 5 bulan kat MAS ni. Heheh. Poyo la awal-awal kan..

Kami kena OJT dekat Hangar 1, depa cakap Hangar 1 tu hak milik Malaysia Airport Berhad so kena ambik visitor pass dekat Skypark Terminal. Leceh jugak la everyday kena bayar seringgit kot selama 2 bulan ! First tempat kerja Group E dekat Line 1.. Time tu kapal B737 Nok Air dari Thailand. Kagum la awal-awal rasa excited gila la boleh kerja dalam kapal *winkwink
Dahla Lead Technician pon baik hati. Kami kena bahagi tugas time tu, aku kena kerja kot belah instrument. Syok. Masuk dalam cockpit jala kerja, dok remove benda-benda dalam cockpit.. Style gila. Penat toksah dok cakap la, macam dok dalam sauna, reach the unreachable space, kadang-kadang lepas habis kerja tu, tangan ketaq terus sebab lama sangat dok buat. Peluh lagi la toksah dok cakap, macam mandi wooo. Punya la style. Tapi tak kisah even penat pon, sebab saya suke. Hihi. Line 1 overal memang best, sebab AKU TAK TIDOQ LANSUNG. Sumpah mana boleh tidoq dok line tu.. Rasa fresh ja, kalau boring pon Iphone Bert akan jadi mangsa ar. Mangsa apa? Mangsa kena main Tap Tap Revenge dengan aku. Dahtu pulak aku macam terer lebih pulak main tu.. Hahah ayat Bert yang paling annoying sekali bila ajak main;

Me; Tap tap jum.
Bert; BAK DATANGGG!

Kira kami dua la paling terer main. Orang lain macam tak mampu nak lawan kami dua ni hahaha. Kalau aku kalah Bert menang, kalo aku menang Bert kalah. Tu ja, orang lain memang tak boleh lawan kami ah. Depa jadi tukang sorak kot tepi ja. Time paling best dekat Line 1 bila depa buat kenduri DURIAN. GILO BABI SYOK. Mau dekat bebelas ulas durian jugak aku hentam time tu. Gila sedap tahingat. Hentam dengan takdak perasaan malunya. Banyak jugak la depa belanja kami. Lontong la macam2. Keja makan jala. Lepastu p pulak Line 2. Ni Line paling stylo milo vico. Sebab area tu macam secluded sikit, so QA memang tak masuk sangat lah. Kapal dekat line ni selalunya Fokker 50 dengan ATR 72 ja. Tapi tak bestnya dekat Line ni la aku belajar cara-cara nak tidoq dengan aman. Memang heaven habis. Sebab kapal takdak time tu. Geng-geng LAE dengan technician duduk dekat belah depan ada kerusi apa semua. Kami yang geng trainees ni layan lepak dekat belakang, tapi takdak kerusi ah, kami lepak atas holding rack. Dengan holding room yang super duper sejuk punya aircond, apa lagi, kami pon terus di buai mimpi.. Dekat Line 2 jugak la leher aku sakit selama 2 minggu sebab posisi-posisi tidoq aku yang macam bangang. P kerja masuk pukul 0745hours, aku masuk holding room, aku tidoq sampai time break, 1300hours. Heaven kan kan kan? Lepas isi perut, sambung lagi tidoq sampai balik kadang-kadang tu. Hahaha. Suma posisi tidoq aku try. Dari telentang atas rack tu, tidoq duduk atas rack sambil kepala senget ke dinding, tidoq atas kerusi sambil kaki landing baik punya atas rack, macam-macam la. Memang padan la sampai leher aku teleng. Sampai ada satu tahap aku tak boleh pusing kepala ke belah kiri. =_= Terok gila dok Line 2. Sapa suruh sempoi sangat orang-orang Line 2. :p Time ni memang jadi malas gila kerja tak buat sangat sebab memang takdak kerja sangat pon. Yang paling ingat time kena remove wire cable dekat engine. Time tu memang bangang la technician tu saja nak menguji kekuatan kot, dia soh remove guna wrench. Gila skru besaq duit 5 kupang. Nak bukak menda haram jadah tu pon mau dekat 15minit aku dok pusing, memang berpeloh gila bangang padahal benda simple ja pon. Dengan peluh mericik-ricik(wth?). Layankan ja. Dekat Hangar 1 ni ada la satu kedai mapley tepi METC, so aku selalu la p makan situ time breakfast. Lagi layan bila roti canai dia memang sumpah terbaik. Mantap wey. Tak pernah rasa roti semantap tu. Aku kalau bunyi siren break time ja, aku lari teruih p mapley tu. Sampai macam tu sekali la. And time tu bulan puasa, sehari sebelum nak masuk bulan puasa tu macam nak teriak rasa sebab takleh nak makan dah roti canai sedap. Sumpah tak tipu. Sebak.. Haha. Tetiap hari dalam bulan puasa dok countdown bila pulak boleh makan roti canai tu. Ya. Sampai tera tu. Nak buat cena makanan is my life. Time ni jugak la aku kenal dengan Has, lepastu Nad selalu lepak dengan Has so kami semua jadi rapat. Depa selalu dok lep, aku pulak selalu dok MC. Psai apa dok MC? Haa, you tau pasepa I slalu MC..

*cerita ini tak dapat bersambung lagi kerana Aimi sudah penat menaip. Huu.

To be continued,

One hella night.

2010-12-11T15:10:00.012+08:00

"You guys are the worst batch ever." MIAT Orientation Committee, Jan 2008.

"You guys are the best MIAT Trainees so far in MAS SZB." MAS Senior Apprentice Training Officer, Dec 2010.

Yey my Semester 6 of Diploma has ended yesterday, hopefully I'll pass and graduate. That's all I need. I'm about to enter the real world, yeah the real world.. No more studies for me, I guess. I'm not going to further my studies in degree level, as becoming a license aircraft engineer is far more important for me. And I'm well aware that I need to go through a step by step process, hell I don't care. This is what I've been dreaming off since I was a kid.

I'm going to miss Malaysia Airlines (SZB) for sure. The place that has taught me a lot, that made me OPEN my mind more.. and finally made me understood how and which path to follow, and to make me realize that this journey is not easy. It has taught me everything just in 5 months. The working environment, the attitude maintenance crew should have, the knowledge and all that. One hell of experience I must say, despite me sometimes felt so boring when there were no jobs to be done.. :p

We ended our OJT with a farewell dinner to celebrate all the important people that have helped us through our 5 months period. The dinner took place at Hotel Singgahsana, Petaling Jaya. We managed to handle the dinner two weeks before and thank God everything was just smooth and fine.

'Membontot je keje korang" HAHAHA

From left; Me, Fida, MCP Wan Jamal and Mas.

Syafa; ha tudia dia suka sgh kt hang aimi dok tnya nama, dok amek gamaq apa semua taktau la hang kena aim.
Me; hahaha mampoih dah mampoih dah

Beloved classmates :)

The coolest group yo! Group E. From left; Anaqi, Bert, Afnan, Mie, Me and Mas with MAS and MIAT VVIPs.

Us with SATOs. Hell, they were like fathers. We surely gonna miss all of you. Thanks a lot for taking a good care of us during our stay in Malaysia Airlines. :)

The coolest of all SATOs; Mr. Noh. He was always there to back us up.

Me holding the prize I won for lucky draw. I ended up give that prezzie to Nina's lil sis.

MIAT = Malaysian Institute for Awesome Teenagers. :p

I'm gonna miss you guys terribly after this. We shall meet again someday, bros !

Laters.

p/s : Penang Trip Alert !

You knew.

2010-12-07T23:24:00.002+08:00

If only.

2010-12-07T23:24:00.001+08:00

What if.

2010-12-07T23:16:00.000+08:00

And maybe.

2010-12-07T22:49:00.000+08:00

How to.

2010-11-30T17:38:00.000+08:00

Note to self.

2010-11-30T11:46:00.004+08:00

There's no use to look down and ask God where did I go wrong.

There's no use to cry out loud and seek for sympathy.

There's no use to wait anymore.

There's no use to be patient.

Enjoy, and ilek je bro macam Geceng cakap. Hahaha.

They asked, I replied.

2010-11-22T10:58:00.003+08:00

They say why love when you know it’s gonna end?

I replied why live when you know you’re gonna die someday?

They asked why trying so hard when the other doesn’t do the same?

I replied why giving up too soon when you might be getting a result you’ve been wanting for?

They asked this is all bullshit. You’ll end up nowhere.

I replied I believe love is the answer and I do believe love will find a way.

They asked what if you had your heart broken by the person you love most?

I replied when you really love that someone, no matter what they do, you’ll forgive them easily. It might sound stupid but you just do. Because the love you feel is way greater and deeper than the mistake that your partner did.

They asked what if your partner realized she wants to be wif someone else?

I replied let her be. Let her choose what’s the best, I’d do whatever thing that makes her happy. And if by being wif someone else makes her happy, then let her be.

They asked, I replied.

You just don’t know what love could bring.
You fucking don’t understand.

Laters.

Twenty-two.

2010-11-14T16:30:00.003+08:00

Happy Belated Birthday, Aimi.

You are now tuwentee-tuu.

After months not meeting em, finallyyy.

Laters.

The L Word Part II.

2010-11-04T23:30:00.004+08:00

Lightning stroke again a month before,

Been tested again,

And this time it was double hard,

Double everything,

When I was so far away,

And the only thing I could do was sit there and bleed..

I bleed-ed, I fell even deeper,

I tried to find a way back,

I stepped my feet on the ladder step by step again,

Tried to find my way back,

I did try my best to find my way back,

Did I find my way back ?

I stumbled and crawled,

To find my way back,

I closed my eyes,

So that I only opened my mind,

To let only the memories held me,

Not the reality,

That I've been facing right now,

The reality,

That broke me down once again,

I broke down,

And I cried,

Then I realized that is not the way,

To find my way back,

I really need to find my way back,

Lost,

Lost in the reality yet pretended everything was fine,

Hell that was hell,

When everything was not even agreed to what you are holding on,

Hell that was hell,

Observing,

But not enough,

Not enough to make me stop,

Observe more,

No,

It's not what others feel about this L,

It's something that only I could feel,

And my significant other,

You, you and you would not know,

Observe,

Still you, you and you won't get the answer,

This is between us two..

Laters.

Oh I'm dancing wif my sey-elff.

2010-11-03T22:05:00.004+08:00

That caption has nothing to do wif what you're about to see/read. I'm too attached with that song fer the time being. So today was good ! Finally after weeks not having any tasks to be done, today was quite fun, really. The best part when Syafa told me we're gonna have free lunch !

My first time eating this. Nasi Bukhara Briyani from Syed Bistro. It was so scrumptious I tell you, you know when you get any meals for free, they'd be extra delicious aite? Yeap yeap but sadly I wasn't able to finish eat since before that I already ate Nasi Lemak and 2 karipap. Bloated. Period.

Also today was the launching ceremony for Boeing 737-800 and the special guest was Hilary Clinton. But nay I din go to the opposite hangar to watch it. Glad I got the chance to be closed to this new generation A/C and I heard that they are still more to come.. 54 more okay. 54 !

Don't get us wrong, we din ask for it. Comprende? They asked us to come and take photos wif em. Ha ha ha.

Laters.

To the place where I belong.

2010-10-31T23:36:00.005+08:00

My tak-rela-looked to go to Miat. :/

The "museum", oh look, a bunch of old crappy aircraft ! Pfft.

My baby; Kachang and the old 727 bird..

Nasi Kandar Lawood. The place to get the best Nasi Kandar in townn (Taman Cempaka, Nilai).

Nasi Ayam Separuh + Sirap = Orgasm. Period.

Laters.

p/s : A picture could tell a thousand stories. (padahal malas nak tulis) chow.

Ne me quitte pas,

2010-10-31T23:26:00.002+08:00

"Lemme go home.. I'm just to far, from where you are, I want to come home.."

Home, Michael Buble