The unforgettable 8 months period.

I personally think I have this thing in me, I mean by expressing my thoughts into writing. Writing is a part of me and will always be. My mission to stop writing failed. Not just once, nor twice.. I don't know how many times already I made it clear that I want to abandone my Blogspot but I just couldn't do that, really. You know the phase? Yeah the tough phase I went through for 8 months? I can proudly say it has ended! All Hail King of Dork! Of course with the help of my loving and awesome friends. Those miserable months I could not bare to tell but for the sake of future reference. As I know the future Aimi will like to read it someday, lets just give the future Aimi some reminder yeah if ever this shit happens again?

I went mental. Like totally lost. I'm not ashamed when I tell you this, yes I cried every night. Thinking where did I go wrong. Situations went tougher when I had to go to my On Job Training every day. Thank God for my friends. Yeah. Them. Who helped a lot. How can I forget those sweet advices from my bros; Bert, Has, and mostly Geceng. I told Geceng everything and he told me to be patient. I killed time by spending most of my time with them. We skipped work, we loitered around shopping malls, watched movies at cinema. Yeah. Them. Thanks a lot buddies. Thanks for being there when I needed you guys the most. Geceng was like my shoulder to cry on. And my two loving friends from Up North aka my awesome hometown; Nad and Nab. What would I be without them. They helped me ease the pain a bit by bit. They were there for me. They listened to my pathetic stories without hesitation. When I sobbed and when I couldn't stay even a day at my own house back in Subang. How could I stay there when all I thought about was my ex at that moment. You know I had this bad post break up syndrome where I could not even stay at my own house. It reminded me of her. I couldn't stay alone I guess. By being with friends made me forget her. I still remember I called my other ex and told her about this. She only told me this 'you once did it to me, and now be ready to pay the price.' Yeah great. She was right. I did something bad to her and at that time karma is chasing me back. 

Maybe some of you will say 8 months weren't that long. Well my friends, they were for me. I've never been single for that long in my entire life. I've always had someone there besides me. Always. This is the first time ever in my entire life. You know how hard it was? To stand at your own feet? When all these while you always had someone around? I lost my way. Really. I didn't know what I had become into. Til now. Maybe now I'm way better. Yeah of course. Now it's a different story. I don't want to talk about now. I still want to tell you guys about my 8 months torturing journey. So back to my story, since I can't recall much about what had happened, let me just conclude that if ya'll happen to be at my place, just go on. Keep on walking to the endless road. Like I did. I kept on walking til I finally found my way. Before, not knowing where the road might lead me to, I silently put my faith in God for whatever outcomes I shall face later. And believe me, that outcomes that I'm getting now are indeed beautiful. And it all worth it. It all worth it you know. I'm not lying. 

I finally found my way back after my long journey. I persuaded my own heart, I said this to myself, 'it's okay Aimi, you'll find your way someday. Learn to let go little by little. Little will be something bigger when you do it every day. ' Yeah I did it every day. I left behind the sad memories. I never intend to take them back. I'm pretty much paranoid the same thing will happen again if I take them back. Leaving those memories behind are the best decision I've ever made so far. I slowly learn to appreciate my life even more. And people surrounding me. I notice even the simplest thing that makes a person beautiful. And that when I came across this one person. 

A person who is beautiful inside out. Indeed you are. Thanks for coming my way. You have made me want to be better. You have shown me honesty and sincerity still live in this world. Yeah guys, there's still hope lives in this world ey? :) The road is still long. This is just the beginning. I learnt my lesson. I grew stronger than before. Completely a different person now. Yeah. So if you have been knocked down pretty hard, just get up and fuck everything else that is stopping you to get up. And the important thing is to try hard to stand at your own feet. 

MY AWESOME BUDDIES, thanks for helping me out! Kae, Anim, Kak Alia, Nawar, Wan, Najwa, Chaen, Thira, Nadia, Aesya, and those names I mentioned above. Yeah guys, they were there for me through my downs. I don't forget, and will never be. I shall repay ya'll someday, God willing. 

Laters.